Reaching out to GOD..

Sometimes, life hands you struggles you aren't sure how to handle.
Hurt feelings. Anger. Resentment. Jealousy. Depression.
The grey of winter, may magnify these in you.
It happens to me. It's happened to me. It's happening now, to me.
I have lost my joy.
I have let hurt feelings, anger, resentment and jealousy take hold in my life.  I don't like this "me"
For 2 days I have struggled. Weighed my options. Overthought the details that sent me backwords, out of GOD protection.
Amazingly, this morning I decided to collect my emotions,and send them packing. I prayed diligently for my mind to be released of all anxiety.
It started working. I dove head on into cleaning.. yes, cleaning.
Its good for my soul. Scrub the unsightly hurts, angers and jealousies away.. Shine out the resentment. Let the goodness of GOD, and thoughts of HIS love for me, bring back my spirit. My Joy. My blessings.
In the midst of all this cleaning, I took a break and  I set out for a long walk..
Best medicine for me, to clear out the depression.
After all of this, I came upon a wonderful prayer, and with this prayer, some amazing encouraging words.  All in an email.
How blessed am I, well at this moment, very. This is what was sent to me.  Thank you Chris.

Deep within you is everything that is perfect, ready to radiate through you and out into the world. It will cure all sorrow and pain and fear and loss because it will heal the mind that thought these things were real, and suffered out of its allegiance to them.
You can never be deprived of your perfect holiness because its Source goes with you wherever you go. You can never suffer because the Source of all joy goes with you wherever you go. You can never be alone because the Source of all life goes with you wherever you go. Nothing can destroy your peace of mind because God goes with you wherever you go.

If you are reading my blogs, and I hope you are..
May this one in particular, find you and help you thru whatever it is that is bogging you down.. GOD is GREAT & may GOD, continue to  Bless both you and I...

Baby Gabriel

On Dec.15, 2011  we joyously welcomed Gabriel Owen into our world.
He is growing and changing every week, up to 10lbs now..Dark hair, green eyes.(so far)  light complexion.. and PERFECT in every sense of the word..
New mom Lora is exceptional. She is stepmom to our Alyvia and Tahlia, and now new mom to Baby Gabe...
Grammi has noticed how giving she is toward my girlies, with the care of Gabe, they help her feed him and hold him, with no signs of a new nevous mommy...  I LOVE THAT..
Grammi had temporarily been renamed Stalker Grammi, but that title has  recently been dropped to just Grammi again... ( I wonder what I did differently  lol )
My son is overjoyed at having his girls with him and being married again, and having a son.  Life is good.
They are a unique family..
There is a peaceful, spiritual calm hanging over this family..   I LOVE IT.

Porch sitting

On Friday,  I learned of the death of my long time friend, and fellow porch sitter, Ruth.
She was 92. I will miss her . She had a wonderful long life, travelling to 50 states.
4 Countries....... Decades of change, left her unchanged..She read, did crosswoods, she puzzled , sewed and gardened..
Ruth spent each day busy, with her hands and her mind.
She was as sharp as a lawyer.
I will miss her mind, her love and compassion and conversations.
She will never be far from my heart.
She joins her sisters and brothers, waiting for her I am sure at the Pearly Gate..
I am sure they are rejoicing and smiling down on us all right now.
It gives me comfort..

March 12....... Joyfilled day..

  Yesterday, Lora came rushing into my bedroom to see if I was awake.. Babe, had left her a note of sorts.. (before he had left for work in the morning.)  .Kinda like a scavanger hunt, for something he wanted to give to her. She brought in the most charming primitive doll, named Shugar.. and in her gathered up arms.. A RING.

  We hugged, cried and talked of many things .. Mostly about, what a caring, romantic, creative and loving son I have.. They are a very unique couple.. Sharing their love of art, love of film and love of family.   I couldn't be happier.. It is such a wonderful time for him and Lora.. and the girls.. They have been thru so much..
Thank you GOD for once again answering our many prayers over the years and showing me, once again..
LET GO    LET GOD................  I am blest..  We all are........

Strings and glass beads..

Well, I am learning a new craft.   My Lora has taught me the art of beading.. The fun part of this is browsing the craft stores for unique beads..
   At home I display them like little treasures... Earthtones seem to draw me to them, as do shades of lilac/
I am finding that when I work on peice, someone's name comes to mind.. So, gifting these little suprises, makes this all the more fun..
   If I ever figure out how to post a picture, I will..   Hope everyone enjoys their day... I am..

My Beloved Uncle C.

    My sophomore year was a time for turmoil for me. In the end, I went to live with my Aunt and Uncle.
I thought I would stay for a week or so till things settled down at home. I had caused the unsettling, so I wasn't sure how long exactly it would be till smooth seas prevailed..
    Turns out it was allot longer than I thought.. So. for 3 years, I lived with them. During that time, I sometimes forgot I was the guest. I  led them on a roller coaster ride thru the early seventies.
ALMOST without incident or reaction. I thought they were just naive or something. I thought I got away with it all.
    Now looking back, I realize who the naive one was.  They let me live, grow, learn, make mistakes and grow up. While I thought my Aunt was a religious nut,  reading the bible day and night , it turns out, that most of that was ...FOR ME.   My salvation, my intervention. 
    My Uncle was the Police Chief. He had my back from day one. He lived by the philosophy, that everyone wants to be good. He brought my goodness out.. Slowly, so slowly, I didn't even see it oozing forth. 
    They loved me and cared for me unconditionally.  I am the person I am today, all because of them.
I buried my Uncle this week. It was shocking. I thought he would live forever. I can't remember being this sad in a long while.  He was honored by the policemen, firemen, the military, religous, family and friends.
He impacted more people than I will ever even know. The honor they bestowed on him were in  these words.  "HE MADE EVERY DAY MATTER, and SAW GOOD IN ALL ."
     He was well loved, married to my Aunt for over 60 years. She now starts a new chapter in her life without him.. but like him, I am sure, she will make everyday matter.
    I love you Uncle Clarence..  (make sure to put in a good word for me...:)